=(

things wud be MUCH MUCH beta if im in malaysia now.
im missing my cousins and my relatives. and it hurts. haix.
i don even noe how my baby cousins look like, up till now!
happy new year to them...


but on the other hand.. im contented tht my father's ok.. his condition is stable for now. and i really hope afta the procedure on 3rd feb.. everything will be fine.


somehow tis issue had brought me to a clearer picture.. of whom i can really trust and rely on.
many of my frens were there.... and someone reeli surprised me..
no matter what, i needed all those badly. im really touched...


but some werent there.. i suppose..
perhaps there's a reason behind it. i hope so.



i feel cheated sometimes. why are you like that?

big blow.

it's been really hard for the past few days.







all i know is that i CANT take another blow.
thanks to those who were there!!
im grateful to all of you. thx for the encouragements and prayers.
even a simple msg had meant alot to me.
haix, im sorry if i'd been harsh in any way. =(



i know he'll be well again!
i know we'll be able to spend the new year together as a family.
i wont lose hope.

replies to tags.

tianz; don care mus do. =p
zhu mee; yeaa we shall remain as ONE. hahaa and we will.
jingwei; tan hui ying's muchhh betta. hee.
toiletcleaner; heyy iz u again?? takin a break frm cleanin toilets ma. hahahaa ehh onli ur math fail don drag me in lehhh. =DD why i tink the rap's FANtastic.
big nnnnn; u tio snailz virus ba! iz okay. lol. aye i tink we'll be like now? hahaa.. stiu as united. heh. =)
jx; HEYY wads yr result for eng compo! tell me leh. HAHAA.
ganda; told u BAD DAY le. =)

tong bao's birthday chalet! =)

HEY. CHI FAN LE MA?
hahaaa...
i lik the mac's advertisement!!


heh. ytd reached home ard 1am.
hahaa.. reeli enjoyed myself at the chalet! =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to CHENGZ in advance!
hahaa.. her bdae's tmr.


before the chalet mi tianz tingz kangli n ah ma went to find her the perfect present.
hahaa.. which is the billabong skirt she's totally mesmerized with.
andd of cos we'll giv her the second part of the present tmr...
hahaa den we reached the chalet ard 5+.
lol.. ehhh.. as usual we jus crapped.. hahaa. aye don tell ya bout the details =p
den we watched tv.. lol.. luckily the beds were steady this time round! hee =D
OH yah. hahaa.. the food rocks la.
show u some of the pics taken using W55oi. hahaha.












zhu and tianz.












me and zhu.












nana and big nnnnnn.












hahaa. =x ying an's head is under the blanket. thts alvin makin fun of him.













hahaa.. WOW. nana's having fun again! =)












hahaa.. zhu mee tried to take me. jus nice my hand there!! hahaa. veri artistic ryt!... if only dere wasnt a small head popping out from behind =(













hmm.. i dono why but i tink ying an enjoyed himself the most throughout the chalet! don u agree wif me. =)


well well. i actually took videos but i dono how to put em here. lol..
den we bridged oso.. hahaa.
ostriches are dumb creatures. and dey blow up easily too.
hahaa.. mann.. iz yet another nice gathering.. how i wish it hadnt end.
THANKSthanksthanks tong bao for the wonderful time! hehee.. =)


hmmmm. shyt lah dere's sch tmr.


SCHOOL.
makes me mad.
let's burn it down someday. =p

quick post.

not in any order.


S E V E N Things that make me Smile =) :
-aiya.. actually i'll easily smile de, as long as u smile at me. i mostly laugh at things thou. hahaaa.
okk so thts it.


S E V E N Ways to Win my Heart (Right Now):
errrrr
-hahaa.. put me on a roller coaster ride!
-hmm..... aiya i veri easily satisfied one.
hahaha.. well but i reeli wana hav fun wif 2g if i can.


S E V E N Things I Believe In:
-i'll find a team wif real bond eventually.
-myself
-2go4
-errr... hahaa.. i believe in a lot of things one la. cant tink of any now=x


S E V E N Things I'm Afraid Of :
-INSECTS, be it small medium big.
-loneliness lorrrr
-hahahaha. err.. boredom.
-anddd... being the center of attention??
-SEPARATIONS.
-hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i dono la don wana think. =p


S E V E N Things I Do Everyday:
well u noe.. eat slp all dose stuffs.


S E V E N People I Want to See Right Now:
-mayday ah xing.
-i noe can le.
hahahaa.


next 7 to do this:
basically most of my frens hav stopped bloggin arh..
hahaa..
mayb
-tianz
-isaac
-rena
-sek


hahaa..
i don feel lik a sec4 student..
lately i've been reachin home ard 7+ ...
bcos oways hav small gatherings wif 2g peeps. hahaa..
tdy we stayed at bubble tea shop till its closed.
yeaa.


niteees.

con't.. 2gers pls read the previous entry.

and how can i forget tht time when we created havoc and actually played in the sch's fountain.

sigh. watched the 2g video.. ='(...
"keep smiling.. keep shining. knowing u can always count on me for sure."

ahs life

heyy.. here to do a reflection on my past three years in ahs.
this is a long long one =)


when i firz came for orientation.. i was in OG7.. shud be. lol.
yea den was cca chosing time.. when the cher said bball.. veri few ppl stood up.. i wanted to, but tht time i was extremely shy and felt awkward bout standing up.
so when the cher said badminton WAH so mani ppl stood up so i followed the crowd.. went stadium to see the bball selection but i nv try out.. cos the ppl dere looked dao. haha sorry.
den i went wif my pri sch classmate to the bmt selection.. i was the firz one to go try out.
hahahaa.. den was selected. but i kinda said i don wan le.. cos i was to be posted to sports klas.. and i hear liao i was lik.. it mus be tough.
so i went off... and went for wad i thot was compulsory to go for choir audition.. apparently mani ppl din go i realised.
of cos i wasnt chosen cos my singing sux. hahaha.
den i started thinkin where shud i go. wad cca shud i join. and.. haha.. i went back hall to say i wan join bmt.


posted to 1g.. and so my sec 1 life started..
hahaha... for the firz 2 weeks i felt kinda left out thr.. cos i wasnt close wif anyone yet... and I felt reeli scared.
hahahaha. bcos i thot there were ah lians in my klas. i was damn guai1 one can. at tht time.. lol
cos during pri sch i was a prefect.. yala im a gud girl la.=)
hahahaha.. den yanlin n li ting oways tgt.. somemore got some seniors oways cum the klas find them de.
hahahahahhaa.. den i rmb in klas zihui that corner oways shout across the klas at swan yee de. HAHAHA.
THAT I WONT FORGET FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE.
hahaa.. den i tink the cher was kinda shocked. cant rmb hu but i think iz mr lee jie han.
yeah den i was thinkin... oh no, im gona stuck wif tis klas for a year.
haha but afta tht knew chen yanlin better.. cos we took cab.. yea den slowly came to know yu liting..
hahahaa.. and THEY INFLUENCED ME... hahaa i slowly slowly lost my image as a guai kia. lol.
cos i rmb i was in the same proj work grp as them. den dey super slack.. nv do the work.
wahh.. haha.. so i thot.. okay lor heck care bah. sniff sniff.
yea den we bcame closer and yang xiao tian vivian goh amelia tan came into the picture..
hahaha.. yeaa.. den everytime afta sch i nv go home immediately.. haha.. afta noein the two "ah lians". hahaha.


we and alot other 1gers oways go COLOUR COURT play bball de!!!.. which is the court outside sch, opp sch's netball court.
yeaa.. and we'll watch the bball matches in sch too...
hmmm hahaa.. colour court was considered our 3rd home. lol.
we came to noe some ngee ann bballers.. and jia xiang dey all ryt? lol.
was reeli fun playin there!! it contained alot of memories i guess..
oh yahh...
hahaa.. thinkin back now.. iz reeli funny how some particular ppl luked or behaved!
lik.. sekhui. HAHA I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT HAIR!!! NEVER! CURTAINS DRAWN. HAHAHA. =P
andand... NANA HUANG. hahaha.. she was a BOOKWORM/NERD! wif tht TOOT hair and glasses. hahahahhaa. and i tink during recess she oways stay in klas to READ BOOK one.. dono her or bernice lah. either one. cant rmb. hahaha.
reeli is jing1 dian3 lor... ROFL.
and err.. haha.. we often hav quarrels i tink... yea and i wonder why they're such angry ppl. lol.
hmm and we gave lots of teachers headaches... lalala.
ohh ms ong was our sec1 form teacher... err.. i tink we made her cry before?.. =x
yeaa and we performed a dance on stage.. boa's song. wads the title arh?
we put in LOTS of effort. and we even had conflicts.. but we encouraged one another and we manage to overcome it. hahaa.
was a great performance! enjoyed it thoroughly. oh man.. loved the dance.
hmm yea and finally we had one chalet at the end of sec1..
haha.. =)


CAME SEC 2!
my favourite favourite year!
yes.. such an exciting year. hahaha..
2gers became closer.. nana became noiser.. chewpeng became lagger. hahaha.
and i was closer to my tutu! =D
yeaa.. vvv soon all the 2gers bonded.
grace la.. jawi la..hui min la.. bernice la..
hahaha. we participated in lots of sch events.. and topped a few times for the noticeboard competitions.
hahaha.. yesyes i rmb there was once.. the racial harmony board... we actually stayed in sch till 8 to finish the board.. afta tht the 2gers went 85 to hav dinner!
so touching lor.. and iz lik 3/4 of the klas were there to help!
tht wasnt the only time.. thr were other times too! hahaa..
liaz,tianz,vianz,linz and me formed fiv5. and tingz zihui lingz n sek formed G4.
AND TOGETHER WE ARE G9. woots.. hahaha.
fiv5 often wud tok heart-to-heart at the BROWN TABLES!.. the umbrella tables or wadever u called that.. haha.. they were outside our klas.. we often gather there.
and yea.. tht time i was quite a bad tempered person. i cant control my emotions well. so i said hurtful things.
fiv5 told me bout that and dey stayed by me to help mi overcome this. was really touched bcos dey din leave me alone..
and i changed into a better person i am now. HAHAHA. =)
aye... hahaa.. den we oways reach sch veri early de! so that we can sit outside our klas to chat.. lol..
and bcos we're loud ppl.. other klasses cudnt stand us.. but wad we felt was that... we jus wana be ourselves.. and we enjoyed one another's company.
we mus stand as a klas. as one. thts wht mattered. =D
AND THE FUN PART!
we had lotsa them... water fights.. hahaa.. paper ball fights...newspaper fights.
lol... allies vs axis!! haha AXIS ROCKS MOST =P
oh mann SUPER FUN lor.... hahaa.. but i vvv poor thing.
haha.. i was the cleanliness co-ordinator for 2 years. imagine that. HAHA.
but i.. well.. kinda slack. lalala..
i rmb 2G klasroom can NEVER be clean. -.-
haha.. ohh.. and i tink... we oso made lee lao shi cry before........ =x
err.. haii it was hard on our teachers. =p
and mrs rod reeli RULES! hahaa.. she's the one who reeli understood us...
she accepted us for who we are. lol.. and she admired our klas spirit too!
yea.. mrs goh was v nice too.. haha..
tht time i dyed my hair den she jus say me onli. hehee =)
hahaa yea.. den we all had our competitions tht year..
bmt, netball came in fourth in east zone. =)
bball nationals second! lol.. softball... i tink 3rd in east zone?
hahaa yeah..
me tianz n the bmt team were quite close at tht time? haha..
was really wonderful then.
but when the year was coming to an end my knee injury haunted me again and tianz injured her arm.
i was kinda depressed that time i guess.. did badly for 2.4.. cudnt run for 200m race during sports day.
thts when we started to drift further from bmt... and we missed 8 mths of trng..
den we sorta gave up... i guess...
and.. i dono.. for me.. i cant seem to feel the bond anymore.
no one's to blame..?
i stayed on mainly bcos.. i din wana leave 2g.
andd.. bcos of somebody i guess.
i felt as if i was the most fortunate person ever... to know u.
mayb it din work out well but i'll nvr regret my choice.
hope u'll have more confidence in yrself. have more faith!!
i'll support u till the end...
yeaa and everyone else trained hard.
and 2g had lots of klas outings, chalets.
will nvr forget them.....
i came to know many many wonderful people.
and... whatever happens i'll still be me, still be grateful to everyone who'd been caring for me, who'd made a difference in my life.
yes i feel so loved.
when 6 2gers were chosen for the ip...... it was a heartbreaker.
... splitting class in sec 3 was oredy bad enough.. but ppl leaving ahs was even harder to accept.
bcos of the sch authority's decision.. the sports klas system was abolished.. it started in year 2004.. means.. the last batch of sports klas was badly affected too.
and dey were as heartbroken as us.
i tink we had a petition but we failed?..
wadever.. its simply unfair.
now it's back..? lik wth.... dey stopped for two years onli and now iz BACK?...
we were totally upset for the last few mths..
sighs.
this year is definitely my BEST best year ever! i had everything i wanted dearly.. and i wished the world had stopped here.


but knowing life.. being cruel and heartless.. year 2006 came.
me tianz liaz sek snail mar gs hj posted to 3a..
chengz 3b..
linz tingz kangli kt cl alvin 3d..
lingz sherilyn yingan 3e..
vivian yunlong 3g..
pui liting cheehuat zm zai 3k..
xh nana 3l..
yeaa 3a is enjoyable.. haha.. at least there're crappy ppl..
but mayb iz too quiet during lessons.
hahaa.. yea and we tried to make more noise in klas..
i started to crap more..
bcos back in 2g EVERYBODY was fighting to crap.. so i was more quiet then! haha..
okayy.. den we took part in alot of sch events oso. hahaa.. cant forget the green stomp.
reeli fun =)
and the teachers day performance. lol..
but more nicks were given to me oso... HAHA idiot.
lol... but it reeli passed in a flash! lik ZOOOOOOOOOM.
and the klas chalet was fun! haha..
3a ppl are frenly and easy going.. nice klas!
but i guess iz more of studying.. chionging the syllabus.
and was glad to hav gotten a medal at sports day.. =p
yea and not to forget tht 2g are stiu close.... at least we can gather during recess.. afta sch. =D
well hopefully i'll develop into an even better person. [althou im very nice now] hehe. =)

now im sec 4 oredy...
wad to say?..
my responsibility is to study i guess..
but i wudnt mind to hav fun once in a while. really.
and more and more rules are imposed on us.
life's gona be tougher! esp when having recess..
wth i feel tht we are lik prisoners..
AND WE CANT ENJOY OUR FOOD AT ALL...
thr's oways this pair of eyes staring at u.
a monster waiting to eat u up if u're stiu in the canteen once the bell goes.
ohhh mannn and we cant hav toilet trips as often. freaky sch wif freaky teachers who hav nothing better to do.
school history. wad a joke.
socks high up, blouse tucked in, hair tied up, badge pinned on,
but the mouth's grumbling.
THIS IS A NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!












let bygones be bygones.
at least the memories are MINE to have.

lalala

brrrrrrrrrrr

wahh jus now i bathed the water was extremely icy cann.. iz lik the heater is of NO use at all -.-
havin a headache now... izit bcos of the rain i was caught in earlier? sigh.

hmmmmmmm okay i dono why i've got no inspiration to blog now. hahaa. =x
ohh.. went pac tdy wif na n tutu.. hahahaa. den we played pool for lik 15 minutes only?? cos pac was closing..
2 bux for 15 minutes.. thts not a prob. but the pool table is lik... errrr... quite pork and the cue stick don hav the thing on top one.. iz lik the plastic itself. lol...... den summore the balls will roll for quite long before coming to a stop.. means the material's cheapo. =p

yeaaa but long time nv play pool! miss it alot!!!
hahaha. and i finally can play pool at other places but not valley eight. lalala.
wow, but it kinda makes me look old.

ytd went clothes hunting wif mi mum n sis.. hahaa dey called mi while i was on the way home..
went tm dere.. wahh we walked from 6+ till 9... i was DEAD BEAT!
cudnt take it halfway... cud hav fallen aslp anywheree..
firz time was out till so late while wearin uni.
ohhh and btw i felt SO comfortable wif my ankle socks tdy... wahhh the ahs socks reeli........
it feels as if someone is grabbing my ankles... hmm sounds wrong.
hahaa den luckily mr chua nv spot check 4a,b,c tdy. phewphew.



aye off i go.
baibai =)

yoz

hahaa..
im back im back. =)
ive done quite a lot of gud deeds sehh. am i right to say tht papa?
lol.. okayy a piece of gud news.. i changed fone ytd! yeah!! tht lousy pork fone wif fake infrared is GONE! PERISHED INTO THIN AIR.
wahahaa! now ive the cool orange walkman fone w550. =p
the storage space is 232mb! SEHHH ryt. hahaha..
are u wondering why i nvr get the nokia 6111 i wished for??
hahaaa.. saw the real thing and iz lik super squarish and lao pokpok.
yaaa so i changed my mind.
but.. all the old pics n ESP videos are GONEEE forever... i've got 2 videos taken in 2g klas one lehh.. sadd.

yep. practised amath tdy in afta sch.. wif tutu jx n tianz.
so guaii mann.. n mani ppl gave weird glances.. =x
hahaha 10000000000000. okayy im bad.
hmmmm thx for teachin me thou.. lol.. BU YAO KAN BU QI WO! next time i SURE..............











pass my amath test :D
hahaa okay i feel really cold now.. brrrrrr.. izit suppsoe to be rainy season now..? hmmm.
thr's bio test next week le.. so fastt zooom hols den now test den exams will follow and o lvls wud soon be here.
yikes.. i shall stop pondering bout theseee.
hmm tmr's HOLIDAY. YAY. can slp lik a pig tonite. (:
hahahaa.. tmr i S U P E R F R E E. LETS GO OUT TGT. ask me ask me!

blahh. no way

that really hit the spot.



argh no way.. right?

here here

ARGH.ever heard tht projects can drive somebodi crazy?
I NEED MY BEAUTY SLP! now! my eyelids are closing.....=(
aye sian lahh.


today my chipchip was kena chipnapped.. lol
idiot lorr.. haha.. the chipnappers stiu wrote a ransom note askin for $10.. hahaa.
wad a joke arhh =) justinn and co.
haha but chip was found untouched in a secret pocket of a bag.


hahaa.. yea.

THE END. (:









oh u're stiu here?
hahaa.. waiting for something ryt.
okayyy, my daddy is shuai. he's photogenic. for more details go here! scroll down and u'll see him featured in a mag. lol. my job's done.. (:



yeahh baibai!

FIRZ DAY OF SCHOOL 2006

YAY got my chipchip today.. hahaa.. thx NANA!
but iz kinda handicapped.. lol.. one hand long one hand short. hehee.. but iz stiu veri kO ai neh. =)
todae not bad lah..
the best thing was the nap i took jus now =p.

hahaa.. tio geoklian as form cher. WHOO! hahaa..
nicenice.. i love the sitting arrangement. near window.. near SNAIL! heh. easier to.. deal wif her. =DD
near my frens.. near the noisier side. ^^v
lol.. and today mornin i reach sch at lik 640.. TOO early. idiot nana say 7.05 2gers mus meet..
hahaa.. ended up.. argh. hahaa.. nvm firz day a bit earlier. the rest of the days reach on the dot can le.
our klasroom de position is lik so far away from the toilet..
hahaha.. haven even walk there will pee in our pants le lah!
okayy basically we stiu tio chen yi qing as chinese teacher. hahahaa. but i tink he's much beta than sun li..
dono laa. den chem is potato.
hahahaaha..

yeahhhhhh WATCH OUT. someday i'll be the one on stage.. and u'll hear.. tan hui ying.. 4a.. first in A MATH. =DDDDDD
forget it mayb i shall be the one clearin the table n chairs. oh well..
u neva noe.

yepp study hard. i wana get into temasek POLY.
hahaa.. lik a bit mei you gu qi arh.. hahaa.. nvm lahh i wana wear home clothes lol. NT interested in sci or arts.




\baibai!!! =D

genting 28-31

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!
firz entry of 2006..

hahaa.. genting trip was fun.
esp the roller coaster rides! =D
and the shopping trips..
yea.. of cos the best thing was to see my relatives..
missed my cousins!
hahaaa..
i slept a total of 17 hrs onli for the three nites..
lol.. bcos we were pia-ed daidee.. real fun. =)
hopefully will return m'sia during chinese new yearr.

hahaa.. currently watchin the teen choice awards..
wow.. HOTTIES. =p



thx to everyone who'd made my 2005 a wonderful year. =)
best wishes for the new year!